23/3/10
He sends me a text. It has a smiley after the sentence as if everything is now OK. Of course, this was the hurdle and I do understand but, still, its not done and dusted yet. In three days the result although I shan‘t see him until several days afterwards which is, if I am honest, more than a little annoying.
I don‘t know what he wants. He says, last night, by chat, before I went over (I went over because of this morning because he has to be home before an “important event”) that he had to go to his parents because he hadn’t seen them in six months. I knew. I have no problem.
Yes, I do. Even as I write this, I get that clenching in the stomach. It seems he just won‘t let me in to certain parts of his life. Or maybe its me with the problem? Yes, probably, that‘s it. We are a couple and not a couple. At least, as far as I am concerned.